xingni

Tuesday, July 29, 2003:

guess u jus left like tat again
u r always running away
i dono wat should i say
i m trying to b honest to u
but it always hurt u
i don wish to say anything already next time
as i don wish to c u hurt

we r haunted by our past
we r always running away from our problems
u don trust me
u don believe me
i hav nth to say or prove tat
u r important to me as like i always say

i wan to share everything with u
but sometimes it is hard for u to take it

i do hope u r theone i can share everything with

MICHELLE // 7/29/2003 12:32:00 AM

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Friday, July 25, 2003:

miss u miss u miss u
MICHELLE // 7/25/2003 10:47:00 PM

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Friday, July 11, 2003:

The way you laugh
At the things I say
The way we have a blast
When we're together all day

The way you talk
And that gorgeous smile
And how when we kiss,
You drive me wild


The way I feel
When you look into my eyes
The way that when I'm with you,
My world is paradise

The way you said I'm beautiful
As we got out of the car
The way I know you inside out
And everything you are


The way you held my body
As I fell asleep wrapped in your arms
How you'd whisper softly in my ear,
and I was safe from all dangers and harms

The way we laugh, flirt, kiss and dream
and talk forever on the phone
How ever though we're so far apart
I know I'm not alone

The way we talk about the future
and how we're hoping it will be
How we both know that we're
falling in love and surrendering...
You and me

Your hugs and kisses are like the stars that light up my life when things get dark
My favorite place to be is inside of your hugs where it's warm and loving
If a hug represented how much I loved you, I would hold you in my arms forever
In time all things grow old and weak, but my love for you only grows strong and better with every second of every day
And if your feeling scared remember the times we've had. You know it meant everything to me
If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is.
Our love shall never fade away, but shall always stay forever and ever and ever
I want you to get swept away. I want you to levitate. I want you to sing with rapture, dance like a dervish
Where heaven meets earth, I find you
One word frees us of all the weight and pain in life. That word is love. AND I LOVE YOU.
And I will open up, if you promise to give in, on this perfect night, let the two of us be one
It's not that I am afraid to die, it's if I die, who will love you as I do?
You are my sun, you are my light, and in my dreams you are only mine.
I felt attracted to you and love you even to this day, because your soul spoke to me through your eyes, even when you didn't know it. It's the part of you, that you hold the secret to, that many don't see, and I want to dig deeper. With this comes the undeniable passion and sexuality that can fly us heavenward
I love the way you hold me in your arms when I am drifting asleep. I love the way you gently tuck my hair when you think I do not notice. I love the way you give me butterfly kisses so that it wouldn't disturb my sleep. Most of all, I love the way I feel secure and loved in your arms

MICHELLE // 7/11/2003 12:31:00 AM

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My favorite place to be is inside of your hugs where it's warm and loving.
The rose that you gave me has faded, and wilted away. But, the love tucked in deep inside remains in my heart forever fresh and sweet.
Never thought that love could feel like this and you changed my world with just one kiss, how can it be that right here with me there's an angel?
Nothing is more beautiful than you wearing only the moonlight and my kisses...
Passion is not having sex, it is making love forever.
You hold my soul's serenity in the palm of your hand, so treat it with care and gentleness.
Up in the skies, I look very carefully to see your face. I wonder if you're there, I wonder if tonight you're thinking of me. I just want to tell you that looking at the stars makes me think of you. By looking at it I just want to be where you are, and hold you tight and never let go.
Just one night in your dreams would be like spending eternity staring at the face of an angel.

I can't help but think about
the way things use to be
The entire world would fade away
leaving only you and me
We would thrive in our togetherness
as slowly, we became one
Our souls were so connected
how did they come undone?Do you remember all the things we said,
and the promises we made?
If it meant ANYTHING at all
we can't just let it fade
All those hours of passion and romance
almost too good to be true -
It would be foolish to throw it away
but what are we to do?

I may not know what love is
but I know what it is NOT -
Love would never give up
because the fire got too hot
I don't have all the answers
but I know one thing for sure
Love may be gentle and kind
but Love ain't always pure
And everybody makes mistakes
but if you love with all your heart
You will always give it another try
and make a brand new start
A life without you by my side isn't the same. Not being able to see your most beautiful desires makes me regret my every decision which have made me distance myself from you my love.I love you and I miss you. Life hasn't been the same without you. Troubled times came within myself and as I grew older with you I also became confused about things I thought were way beyond me.

But yet again I let them get the best of me and therefore the end result was losing you. Now what should I do and say to the one I love.

I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go.

Time may take us apart, that's true, but I will always be there for you. You're in my heart, you'll be in my dreams, no matter the miles between.
When you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers, remember that in those spaces you can see my fingers locked with yours forever.

I wish I could see through your eyes so I would know what you like to see. I wish I knew your wishes, so I could give you everything you want. I wish I dreamed the same dreams you do, and together we could make them come true.
I wish I knew what makes you happy, so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world. And lastly, I wish I were a cell in your blood, so I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart.
Everynight I pray, I'll have you here someday.
I'll count the stars tonight, and hope with all my might;
That when I close my eyes, you'll be right by my side.

I wish I could see through your eyes so I would know what you like to see. I wish I knew your wishes, so I could give you everything you want. I wish I dreamed the same dreams you do, and together we could make them come true.
I wish I knew what makes you happy, so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world. And lastly, I wish I were a cell in your blood, so I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart.
Everynight I pray, I'll have you here someday.
I'll count the stars tonight, and hope with all my might;
That when I close my eyes, you'll be right by my side.


remember all these?
u said it last time
i stil remember them
mayb it doesnt matter now .........
these are wat tat accompanies me when i need u
things don seems well to us now
is it hard for me to jus ask for a friendship?
i thought u said we were close friends..............y u deniey it now?
u kno wat i m into......u kno its hard for me to do any decision now.........
u r making me real confuse


MICHELLE // 7/11/2003 12:28:00 AM

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jus a sms
with a simple motive
but it end with a terrible way
y we had been so far apart?
y we end up quarreling during most every conversation we had?
y we hav so much misunderstanding?
have u wonder y?
i kno how much u had done for me.....
n i kno i done nothing for u
tats wat i m scare of
i wish to b frens at 1st for scarring this would happen
i kno i would hurt u in someway
i kno we would some how end this way
n i don wish to b tat way
i cry n cry whole week
everynite thinking of u
u r different from other guys i kno i felt close to u
i think u already kno this
but i m stil trying to suit myself to the environment
i kno i m selfish
i always wan things i could nv possibly get
but things isnt by my side now
everything is against me
mayb u r rite
i wanted something more physically then mentally lately
i feel very very stress out here lately
as u can feel i m cold towards u
sometimes u can feel me avoiding u too as i don wan to hurt u
i say n do things to hurt both of us
my act is scarrying me
i wan someone bside me especially u
i try my best to online everynite nomatter how tired i m
but not all the time i will c u
but its ok i waited n waited til i cant stand anymore
finally i get to chat with u but we always end up argueing
i try to share my problems with u
but some r too sensitive to u
such as i jus rejected a guy
i wanted to let u kno as i don wish to hide anything fom u
but it was a mistake for me to tell u
u thought i wanted to accept him n leave u
fine......i tried to clear things out but u nv listen
i really tried my best
i only do wat u ask me to
wat else u wan?
i m not good for u i kno tat
but i try
i start to feel very very tired of my life
i don wan to wet my pillow everynite with my tears
i wan to run away fom everything
all responsibility
i m jus a gal who jus wan to b cared
i m not some mighty person who can handle everything
i cant b 100% perfect as u wan me to b

MICHELLE // 7/11/2003 12:19:00 AM

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Tuesday, July 08, 2003:

today i had a very serious talk with my lecturer ab my life ,my future ,my attitude towards studies n my presentation in class
end up talking silly things with him he nv answer my questions
i hav alot of things in mind lately
seems like everyone in my college is starting to b competative
everyone don show it but u could feel it very strong
this is wat i felt pressure lately n i hav bad relation with my family n frens lately
they don understands me n often misunderstood me make me very hard to co-op with them
i sometimes dono wat to do
jus wish someone could b by my side n care for me
everynite i would think of u
hugging my pillow as hugging u need to feel u by my side
wet my pillow everynite with my tears dono wat to do sometimes
theres seems like so much to think of but little time to do it
i dono wat else could i do other then run away from it
MICHELLE // 7/08/2003 12:55:00 AM

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Wednesday, July 02, 2003:

???
don tell me u interested to go to hawaii?
MICHELLE // 7/02/2003 11:08:00 PM

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Tuesday, July 01, 2003:

xing r u here?
MICHELLE // 7/01/2003 09:49:00 PM

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all is every sweet.....
love to giv u a gift to make u happy but...seems like none in the list i manage to do b4
but u hav done lots of sweets thing to me.....:(
sometimes i felt i m useless......not fit to b anyone's gf....
MICHELLE // 7/01/2003 09:35:00 PM

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